I woke up to snowy cars and an immaculate garden today.
I can’t remember having so much snow in a single winter. Just a quick reminder that today, we’re the 19th of march. Yes March ! Mid-march and it’s flipping snowing ! It’s really cold outside, but the snow is already melting.
I love snow, but I had prepared myself for spring and it’s still not coming. The sky is an unending uniform grey and it feels heavy above our heads.
So I’m in my last year of high-school, and it’s a very busy year for me. I committed myself to different projects, from small personal achievements like reading more books in English to big projects, like this one I’m working on and that will take me to Vietnam soon (I’ll probably dedicate an entire article to that).
But right now my priority is : what am I going to do after high-school ?
The great question. I struggled with it for a long time and it isn’t until recently that I came to terms with it.
Here is a list of things I wanted to be while growing up (more or less in order) :
And now, well, it’s a little bit confused. I worked a lot on deciding what I wanted to do : I went to career fairs, participated to open days in schools, read so many articles, looked through books, and my goals got more and more defined. It became less about studying for a job and more about studying to gather knowledge. Because let’s be honest, no one really knows what they’ll do in three, five or ten years.
So basically why I’m telling you all of this is because, this afternoon, an e-mail came in my inbox. I got officially accepted in one of the schools I applied to.
Quick note for you non-french reader : Here in France, we have an online platform which allows us to apply to a bunch of schools at the same time, write our resume, our motivation letters and all of that. But this school was not part of the platform, so I had to send them my registration form, send back the test they gave me and go to an interview for the first time. This interview happened last Wednesday, and knowing that the platform isn’t closed yet, I knew that I’d have the results for this specific school sooner than for the colleges from the platform.
So back to the e-mail. I opened it mechanically. I didn’t realise what was happening. And still don’t. I think I kinda expected to be accepted but I’m an eternal over-thinker so it was natural for me to doubt that.
Now I am very pleased to be able to study there, but the thing is : it’s a journalism-type school, and all the colleges I applied to on the platform are in biology and in biotechnology engineering. And I have a decision to make. I have to give an answer to the school without knowing if I will even be accepted in those other schools. I’ll have to talk about that with the people in charge of the admissions and my parents in the next few weeks.
Appart from that bit, I’m very happy. It feels like a giant relief, knowing that I’ll be doing something I like next year, knowing I can’t end up without a plan for next year, which had been my major concern for the past year and a half.
I’m gonna end this article on this positive note, and on this picture of the sky earlier, that I think fits quite well the mood I’m in right now.
Have a nice week and enjoy the little things !
I went to my first ever concert Saturday night. It was dodie’s concert (if you don’t know her absolutely do check her YouTube channel out – @doddleoddle). I came 3h30 early, and I was scared. And cold, it was freezing outside. I was afraid what I had imagined last night whilst struggling to fall asleep would be better than would actually happen. I was afraid I would not make any friend in the queue. And I’m very shy and bad at social stuff, so I had plenty of reasons to why that could happen. But here I came, ready to make friends and open to new adventures, and it worked ! After a bit of wait, I started talking to the girl in front of me in the queue. They gave us numbers, and I was 61. She was from New Jersey, but was Au Pair in a suburb of Paris. She was really sweet and had pink hair. She vlogged her weekend here, if you want to spot my happy face munching on a pepito. Slowly, we formed a small group a people, and we talked together, both in English and French. More and more people joined us as the sun went down and the time passed.
When we finally got inside the venue, my heart was about to explode. I was filled with excitement. We let our coats in the cloakroom and took place, quite close to the scene actually ! The room was really cool, with a diamond-shaped ceiling, red lights on smoke. A french singer played the opening show, and the crowed quickly showed to be amazing and supportive. We shouted dodie’s name while waiting, and she finally came on stage.
She started strumming her ukulele and I was launched into another dimension. As the songs went by, I found myself singing softly in harmony with the crowd.
It was breathtaking. I had this feeling in my chest, like it was going to explode. I could feel it inside my guts and it was the first time I experienced something like that. I could feel myself synchronised with the crowd. I might have cried at some point, I admit.
When dodie got off the stage, I was a bit shaken. Everything then went on quickly. We got our clothes back, I bought two of dodie’s t-shirts from her tour merch, headed out with my newly-made friends and we walked away from the venue in the cold night. My parents picked me up quickly and we got home.
It was definitely an incredible experience, and I wouldn’t have wished any other artist to perform for my first concert.
Thank you dodie.
I am not a big fan of mugs but still, I enjoy having some that are special to me. So here’s the most original mug I own. It was given to me by my lovely friend (thank you Kim if you’re passing by !) for my birthday. It is perfect to drink tea (as I’m trying to get in the habit of drinking more tea, for some reasons) or a hot cocoa while working or in front of a movie/series/book.
Dancing in the emptiness
Nothing
but you
and the sound of
your feet scratching
the floor as you
go around and
try to fill the space
wondering if what you do
is enough
if you can do better
feel better
be better
Who knows ?
